You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
This is the first song that came to my mind that really describes how I feel right now.
God is truly amazing.
Have you ever been in a situation where you are just helpless. You feel like nothing is working out the way it should. You feel so sad….. and alone.
But it’s just you.
Nobody understands. No one.
And you cry and cry till you just can’t anymore. And you ask why. Why does this have to happen to me? Why me? Why now? Whyyyyyy?
This was me. A few months ago.
I felt like I was in a trance. No, really I was dreaming. This can’t be real. This can’t be happening to me at this crucial point in my life–Being admitted into the hospital a few days before exams. Professional exams.
Thinking about everything I went through that week, I’m truly in shock. I’ve never been so afraid in my life. So sure of no way out.
I remember looking at the exam paper and feeling like WTH! I literally didn’t know what to do. I didn’t read cause I was sick. I was sick, so I didn’t read. But I had to write this exam. I had to. No way I was giving up. I picked up my pen, answered the only 2 questions I could and then scribbled some jargon for the remaining 3. I probably spent more time staring at everything and everyone in the exam room, than in answering the questions.
And now. This is me. Here. Right now. Looking at the results…
Crying my eyes out, not because I failed, but because I didn’t.
I had honestly prepared myself for it. For the ‘scary’ outcome of it all. I knew that there was no way on earth I could pass. I was so convinced that I even just prayed to God to give me strength to take the results anyhow it was. Best case scenario, pass just 1 paper. There was no way I was passing all. It would take more than a miracle.
The one thing I didn’t prepare my mind for however was this….Passing.
Yet I did.
I PASSED! I PASSED !!!!
And I am so so so grateful to God.
I know that I did nothing spectacular. In fact, after seeing my name on the pass list, I figured it was probably a barely-made-it score of 50 or 51 or as they also like to call, a ‘let-my-people-go‘ score. But no. I passed sooooooo well it literally blew my mind. I’m in shock. I’m in awe. I’m SHOOKT people!!!
I honestly don’t know what went on behind the scenes. Whether it was a typo, or an angel that marked my paper. I don’t have the slightest clue. All I know is that thousands of people wrote that same exam and I am so privileged to be part of the few that passed. And for that I am eternally grateful to God Almighty.
The Bible says that we can never imagine how much God loves us. And right now, I see that. God’s love is so merciful and kind. It’s love that we don’t deserve, but we enjoy in abundance. I know deep down that I did nothing to get what I have today.
I know I’m probably not the smartest person in class. Yes, God has given me brains and all but I don’t excel because I’m suppperrrr smart. Most times I don’t feel smart in class because there are a lot of people that answer questions at lightening speed when the teacher asks. Or others that can solve maths and finance questions in a flash with spot on accuracy. But that doesn’t really move me. It honestly doesn’t. I know that my success will always, always, be attributed to God because its actually been God all the way. My grades, certificates, everything. He’s been my driving force.
So I’m here to talk to you. Yes you reading this. Is there something that has been bothering you for a while. A test, exam, interview, task, whatever. I’m here to tell you leave it to Jesus.
God can do anything.
I am telling you from experience. He can shock you out of your bones. He can turn a situation of certain doom and gloom into pure happiness and joy. All you need to do is ask Him to help you first. You need to talk to him. Tell him what’s on your mind. Ask for his help. Have him in the center of your work, career, school and family and then, watch him surprise you.